2023 October - start of half-century journaling

 Last week was the performance review week. I got the same review level as last year. But this last review phase/year, I am not happy with myself. I liked the new tasks, so many things to pick. But I was overall stressed and too stoned to really spend time on important stuff. I didn't go all the way to study outside work. One side I was not happy it feel like I didn't get enough right support, I was looking for the team I can play a role in. But, I felt I didn't get the right support immediately from D. All those factory defects coming in, consuming big chunk of my time, but going nowhere. I didn't ask enough questions, and I didn't say no a lot. I got stuck many many times. At the end of it, among all the people who were running, I looked like a slow slow walker. I hated it. I was MVP for the team for more than ten years (maybe less, since I was burned out in last two years and stayed frozen for a while). And now I am LVP. 

This turned in more stress which I managed poorly.

At the time of turning to half-century old, let's be honest. And let's do something about it.

There is nothing to lose, since I am already LVP. 

A few things to do:

1) with duolingo streak going, let's start journaling streak. 

2) yes, start journaling

3) a few 5Ks per week

十二岁了

 https://www.rtspt.com/events/cif/2023Meeets/wbalms1/mp/#event3

东京八平米

吉井忍 

因为听看理想的原因，对这本书有兴趣。中文， 可以非常快的读完，和预期不一样。本来是对little house这种有兴趣，想读一下只有八平米的住房空间的人生是什么样的体验。有这方面的内容，没想到作者描写很多因为这个住宿条件，而被扩大的公共空间，比如东京的深夜电影院，深夜三点开张的咖啡店，小小的荞麦面店，公共汤，那些因为寂寞而更彼此需要的公共空间和人们。几个故事，非常感人。另外我随便买的她写的另一本＂四季便当＂是当时她给中国丈夫为省钱做便当而收获的书。而这本是她离婚后回到日本的写作记录。这个小小的空间，是她被连根拔起之后的（丈夫找到真爱）落脚之地。空间小不是全部，她的故事，她眼里的故事，才是这本书。一个日本人中文这么好，特别厉害的。

nothing stays put

 https://www.amyclampitt.com/nothing-stays-put

Frost Amphitheater in three years

SFS: Elgar & Rachmaninoff 

Fri 07/14/2023 7:30 PM
https://www.sfsymphony.org/Buy-Tickets/2022-23/Elgar-Rachmaninoff-FROST
https://live.stanford.edu/calendar/july-2023/elgar-rachmaninoff

Featuring Anna Rakitina, conductor | Denis Kozhukhin, piano 

Piano Concerto No. 2

Sergei Rachmaninoff
Edward Elgar

Enigma Variations

Edward Elgar welcomes you into his inner circle with the enchanting musical portraits of the Enigma Variations, performed here by the San Francisco Symphony and conductor Anna Rakitina. Pianist Denis Kozhukhin takes on Sergei Rachmaninoff’s ever-popular Piano Concerto No. 2, a work imbued with dazzling athletics and glittering lyricism.

https://sfsymphony.encoreplus.app/posts/123210/program-notes7

Piano Concerto No. 2 in C minor, Opus 18

Enigma Variations, Opus 36

Sergei Rachmaninoff (谢尔盖·拉赫玛尼诺夫)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sergei_Rachmaninoff

Edward Elgar (爱德华·埃尔加)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edward_Elgar

Denis Kozhukhin 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Denis_Kozhukhin

is a Russian pianist who was awarded third prize in the 2006 Leeds International Piano Competition. He was also awarded first prize in the 2010 Belgian Queen Elisabeth Competition for piano

Anna Rakitina 

has been the BSO’s Assistant Conductor since September, 2019. Recent second-prize winner at the Malko Conducting Competition in Denmark, Anna Rakitina has degrees from the Moscow Conservatory in both musicology and conducting, with a graduate diploma in conducting from the Hochschule Hamburg, received in 2018. 

Night in Bohemia with the SFS 

Fri 07/08/2022 7:30 PM 
https://live.stanford.edu/calendar/july-2022/night-bohemia-sf-symphony
Cellist Johannes Moser joins conductor Erina Yashima and the SF Symphony to perform Édouard Lalo’s Spanish-flavored Cello Concerto while the Orchestra takes center stage in Antonín Dvořák’s euphoric Eighth Symphony.

Rapture & Reverie with the SF Symphony 

Fri 07/22/2022 7:30 PM 
https://live.stanford.edu/calendar/july-2022/rapture-reverie-sf-symphony

Pianist Inon Barnatan joins conductor Ludovic Morlot and the SF Symphony for the virtuosic thrill and soaring Romanticism of Sergei Rachmaninoff’s Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini. George Gershwin’s An American in Paris takes up a jaunty ride through the City of Light while Maurice Ravel’s Boléro hypnotizes with visions of Spain

Sergei Rachmaninoff’s Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini Opus 43

Inon Barnatan Piano

An American in Paris 

Bolero

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rhapsody_on_a_Theme_of_Paganini

Xian Zhang Conducts the SF Symphony 

Saturday, August 7, 2021
https://live.stanford.edu/calendar/august-2021/xian-zhang-conducts-sf-symphony
Xian Zhang, conductor; George Li, piano
Xian Zhang, who made her professional debut conducting Le nozze di Figaro at the Central Opera House in Beijing at the age of twenty, currently serves as the music director of the New Jersey Symphony Orchestra. At Frost she conducts the SF Symphony in a program of Still and Mozart, with the Piano Concerto performed by pianist George Li.

book

 https://csapp.cs.cmu.edu

https://github.com/buyunwang/CPSC-213/blob/master/Computer%20Systems%3B%20A%20Programmer%27s%20Perspective%20-%20Randal%20E.%20Bryant%20%26%20David%20R.%20O%27Hallaron.pdf

How to read and why

 by Harold Bloom