Last week was the performance review week. I got the same review level as last year. But this last review phase/year, I am not happy with myself. I liked the new tasks, so many things to pick. But I was overall stressed and too stoned to really spend time on important stuff. I didn't go all the way to study outside work. One side I was not happy it feel like I didn't get enough right support, I was looking for the team I can play a role in. But, I felt I didn't get the right support immediately from D. All those factory defects coming in, consuming big chunk of my time, but going nowhere. I didn't ask enough questions, and I didn't say no a lot. I got stuck many many times. At the end of it, among all the people who were running, I looked like a slow slow walker. I hated it. I was MVP for the team for more than ten years (maybe less, since I was burned out in last two years and stayed frozen for a while). And now I am LVP.
This turned in more stress which I managed poorly.
At the time of turning to half-century old, let's be honest. And let's do something about it.
There is nothing to lose, since I am already LVP.
A few things to do:
1) with duolingo streak going, let's start journaling streak.
2) yes, start journaling
3) a few 5Ks per week
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